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Negative thinking... It is such a powerful emotion, is it not? I notice that if I let myself slip into it, even just once, it feels like everything around me shifts. Suddenly, it seems like everyone is against me, like I am being treated unfairly, and it all feels so real. But deep down, I know it is just an emotion, a reaction... something I need to learn to control. Or do I? Maybe I don't even realise that's it's just me playing victim...

_{My daughter goes to great lengths to make her friends feel special.}

The burning question: 'Why do I let this negativity creep in?' I guess one reason is when I feel like I am no longer the center of attention. That feeling of being overlooked... it stirs up jealousy, makes me more sensitive, even a bit bitter. But the truth is, I have lost sight of what really matters—things like family, friends, kindness, spirituality, honesty, and hope. Those are the things I should be focusing on, not this shadow of negative thoughts. Easier said than done! Hun?

What should I do?: IF I am going to shift this attitude, I need to start by recognizing that my thoughts are like seeds. (Did you notice the big fat if in my solution?) I need to understand that my mind is a fertile field, ready to grow whatever I plant. The more I dwell on a thought—whether it is negative or positive—the more it shapes not only how I see the world, but also how the world responds to me. Yes, it is all connected, from how I feel inside to the people and opportunities that come my way. Again, easier said than done...

_{I'm not sure about the purpose of this art, but it's probably for one of her friend's birthdays.}

Listen carefully: As I repeat these thoughts, they become stronger, more real. And slowly, I start to see them play out in my life. It is like my imagination turning into reality. So if I want to manifest good things, I need to start by planting better seeds.

An observation though! I cannot help but notice how much the world around me seems driven by greed and selfishness. It feels like so many people are just out for themselves, and it leaves me feeling isolated sometimes. But I know that unless I consciously make the effort to shift my focus away from myself, things will not change. It starts with me.

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You might be thinking, "What is this? Between Turkish cuisines and travel blogs, where do these thoughts fit in?" But these things are very important—this catharsis, this self-analysis. People's attitudes can exhaust a person. Even if you do not want to, you end up reacting, sometimes calling up someone, discussing with them... Yet, you still do not find peace. So, you start to wonder why people behave this way. Try putting yourself in their shoes for a moment...

You will realize that the issue is mainly about perception—I mean, at least 90 percent of it. When you convince yourself that someone is treating you unfairly, even if they kill a fly, you will say, "Oh, they did it just to annoy me."

Haha! Don’t you dare laugh, stupid diary, it’s true! I have definitely witnessed someone behaving in exactly the same way!

So, my dear little diary, I want to tell you this—whenever I feel like people are plotting against me, or I find myself trapped in a cycle of negative thoughts, remind me of these words I have written... I need to reflect on myself in those moments because:

It all starts with me...