Despite having joined during the August awareness spike (ironically via reddit) under what I now consider fundamentally false pretexts of this platform offering to serve as a reddit-like meritocracy... I continually find myself revisiting my steemit/resource-bookmarks/personal-notes as a sort of curiosity-crack-addict; constantly idealizing the seeds of potential evident in steemit and the current 'community' it has created will someday sprout the true meritocracy-system I was 'sold on'

Perhaps my constant offline contemplation of the functional meritocracy implementation of STEEM within my own content interests/design is what keeps me investing time here as a lurker instead of a creator/publisher of my own video works.

Fundamentally I've already reached the disappointing conclusion that steem's economic mechanics aren't sustainable (let alone 'fair')... there's just so many factors I consider points of failure (in terms of accomplishing use-outcomes) that its not worth the effort of attempting to participate in the community's solution-debate. Maybe i'll end up changing my mind and affixing my various notes into a public proposal, but I know there's enough 'insider experiences' from those who are active on steem that'll outweigh any 'outsider insights' I feel are important/potential solutions.

The confounding complexity of all STEEM+STEEMit+SMT implementation(s) as direct & indirect 'design choices' has led me to my present back-and-forth sentiment on the value/future of the platform, cynically remaining merely worthwhile case-study/gem-of-nature that remains beneficially as spectator witnessing (& considering) its evolution as it relates to my perhaps differing ambitions for meritocracy Content with a capital 'C' online.

Like with the whole of culture on our strange little planet, there's far more going on than one can ever become realistically aware, let alone appreciative of, despite the revolution the internet's speed for connectivity; HOWEVER it is the 'journey' of reaching a internet-powered meritocracy for digitally distributive 'talent' that will always serve (at least philosophically) as my justifications around the endless mental-masturbation on the current state of this particular implementation we call STEEM.