I Am Debating...

in #life7 years ago

So, after I returned from vacation, I came over here promptly on Monday morning to resume my two daily posts:

For the first time, Steemit ate my post.

I mean I hit Post, the wheels turned, and my post disappeared. I'm sure there's a way to access it from my cache, but I don't know how to do that. I was also pressed for time as I needed to catch up with emails and organized my week.

Not Much Blood-letting Going On Around Here

I'm torn.

Needless to say I was not motivated to try again or even put much thought into it until now. I have issues with consistency in my content creation, so I wanted to push through with these posts and really DO something. They take about an hour a day combined which is 50% of the time I have in the morning to work on my personal projects such as my Steemit blogs. As a freelancer, the rest of my day is about chasing dollars.

So, I'm torn between following through with being consistent with these things I've started and writing the things that touch my very soul.

Was a Second Account a Good Idea?

I created this, my second Steemit account, as a place where I could write about deeper things semi-anonymously. I've disclosed myself of my own accord, so it's not that anonymous. That doesn't really affect my purpose here; however, since returning from vacation, I feel less motivated toward the separation of church and state I have going on.

Shortly after I created an additional account, someone commented and wished me luck while relaying that they had the same idea and it failed. I get it. It's really difficult to tear oneself in two.

Where I Place My Emphasis

I do opt to put more of my content on my other blog because I have a larger audience there. The only interaction between the two accounts is an occasional resteem.

I do think that I will have more content to share here in the future. Despair is my main muse and it is at rest as I'm fresh off 2 weeks at the coast with the ocean, my great cleanser.

Do These Posts Even Matter?

While both concepts are borrowed, they are both things I think are cool contributions to the writing community. However, I've had a limited response which could be for a multitude of reasons.

I think I've pretty much talked myself in to continuing with them, but I think I need to revamp the concepts, frequency, etc.

Anyhoodles, hi y'all. This has been an update from your friendly local QuietDeluxe.