I greatly appreciate your comments. Your remark on comedy ending in turmoil and tragedy ending in satisfaction reminds me of this quote:

"Joy and sorrow are inseparable...Together they come and when one sits alone with you...Remember that the other is asleep on your bed." - Khalil Gibran

I've personally found that a lot of jokester types tend to mask pain with laughter. One of my favorite films, Happy-Go-Lucky, features this bright and sunny character that I relate a lot to.

This may be a bit of a spoiler: Her name is Poppy, and is super friendly and optimistic. She's altruistic and determined not to allow the bad moods of others rain on her parade. Or so it seems. It becomes obvious that this determination to forcibly focus only on the positive puts her in some precarious situations. In the process, it sometimes makes her the doormat. Beyond her cheerful facade, however, is a deep well of empathy, understanding, and compassion. One she is able to tap into once she faces the sorrow she feels about not being able to help others in the ways that she wishes she could.

A highly appropriate admission on your part, about being a Pisces Rising. This whole article encapsulates the theme of The Hanged Man. Pisces is the nocturnal house of Neptune, and Neptune rules The Hanged Man. It's no wonder that you live your life inversely!